~ adventure! and look who's growing up ~

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Yesterday we met with a few friends

at our local, favorite nature preserve

for more 70-degree F fun! 

We tromped through the open forest

to visit a nearby beaver lodge.

Longtime playmates have finally become friends.  

The kids were not ready to end the adventure, 

so they took off around the shoreline,

which has grown considerably in the last few years,

from creek to extension of the lake.

Little did we realize 

that we would actually get to see 

the beaver dam itself!

It was so beautiful, curving around to contain the water.

We found a 4x4 post that the beavers had utilized.

I believe it used to hold a (now underwater) wood duck nesting box.

Also, we found the mount that nature preserve staff

use to hold the motion-activated wildlife camera.

Tummies were rumbling, so we started back.

They snurkled under this fallen tree at the water's edge.

See the lodge?   

And see this little girl?  Laurel amazed me yesterday.

On the walk back, not only did she not want me to carry her,

she didn't want to hold my hand.

She didn't even want to walk where I had walked.

She wanted to make her own path.  

For those who know Laurel, this is a 180-degree change!

Can you spy a fish?

After lunch, we took a short walk around this loop trail.

Laurel had more surprises for me.

After holding her hand while she walked a (tall) retention wall on the trail,

she ran back to the beginning,

and wanted to do it without any help.

I walked beside her, because it is a 5-foot tall wall over pavement!

Look at Laurel go!  

I couldn't believe it.  

Until this moment, she would have wanted me to carry her.

Would never have dared to attempt this without holding my hand,

even then nervous, whimpering and giggling at the same time.

After hopping down, she wanted to run ahead down the trail,

to catch up with her friends.

She would turn back occasionally, 

to see if I was still there,

but kept running.

And I mean actually running, as evidenced above.

She hasn't ever really ran.

Even at 4 years old, she still toddles along.

Well, not anymore!

I had mixed feelings about this. Mostly, I am happy for Laurel. 

She is well below 'average' weight and far below 'average' height.

A while back, she told me that she didn't like that everyone called her "little". 

And it doesn't help that her twin sister Olivia is almost 4 inches taller, and 5 pounds heavier.

I know that it felt good for her to make her own way through the forest,

to walk that tall and scary wall independently, like all the other children,

and to run, RUN, down the trail like never before.

But seeing this new and completely different side of Laurel is a little sad for me too.

She is effectively the 'baby' of the family, despite being a twin.

And watching the last child go from being a toddler to a young child,

knowing our family is complete,

is very bittersweet for this momma.

But mostly, I'm happy for Laurel.

I could feel that her little big Spirit,

felt proud and strong today.

~carrie~

~ digging in the dirt ~

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A warm February day

allowed the girls to create an amazing playscape!

They trickled out water from one of our rainbarrels

and dug out channels, pools and ditches

until a wetland and river

ran down a little slope in the backyard.

My favorite part was watching silt swirl in the rivulets.

Everyone observed how sand settled out first,

an organic lesson in stream dynamics without a single lecture.

Even this biology momma held her tongue,

allowing her girls to make their own discoveries.

Here, Lela adds to a small dam that Liv created. 

A little frog, actually an incense stick holder,

finds the perfect pool for a home.

The weather in these parts has been amazing!

Today will be nearly 70 degrees F and sunny.

A few red maple trees in our backyard are starting to bloom,

and the Bradford pear is not far behind.

A clump of crocuses in the neighbor's yard

have delighted the girls.

We're looking forward to more muddy, dirty play

as Spring appears to have arrived!

~carrie~

~intentions~

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February's intention kind of got lost in the shuffle.

However, January's intention (which was buried in the shuffle!)

was more than enough to keep me going for 2 months!

My intention was to stop threatening my children 

with some ridiculous consequence

: I will throw these clothes away if you don't pick them up! :

To stop expecting that they should just "do what I say!"

without question or pause, every time.

I don't do that; why should they?

It is silly, and completely unrealistic.

Most importantly, why would I want them to?

Am I seeking to control them, to balance out parts of my life that are out of my control?

Parts of my life that I *choose* to not control?

Am I stressed and frustrated, and falling into negative patterns?

Overwhelmed?

All of the above, I'm sure!

In the last two months, I made a lot of progress,

to the point that nearly all outward manifestations are gone.

But I still carry some of the inner voices,

so clearly this needs continued attention.

~carrie~